Two days, that's it. Then summer vacation is over and I won't have my kids with me all day every day. Most mom's love this time of year, but I haven't stopped crying since Saturday.
See, Saturday we had a yard sale and I sold or sent to the DI all of my baby things. We are done. I have known for a long time that we were done having kids, but I held on to the baby things, just in case. I finally got the nerve to let it go on Saturday, and the tears started to flow.
And then add the fact that all three kids will be gone to school this year, I am really struggling. I am not ready to be an empty nester. I know, I know, that means they have all moved on and left the nest, but when you think about it, they (Cait and Daws this year) are gone more than they are home if you don't count sleep time. They leave by 8 and are home by 4 and are in bed by 8. That's only, max, five hours a day that I will see those two. And Cora will be gone 2 hours a day. So essentially I will be alone in my nest more then my babies are here with me. Yikes, where have my babies gone?
I cried when the school clothes came in the mail, I cried when I cleared out Cora's 3T clothes (I mean I sobbed for like 20 minutes over this one), I cried when I read their new teacher's names, I cry over everything related to school. I even cried while thinking about the back to school get together we are having with our cousin's tomorrow. I can't stop.
Why can't they stay little forever? It's just not fair.