See, Saturday we had a yard sale and I sold or sent to the DI all of my baby things. We are done. I have known for a long time that we were done having kids, but I held on to the baby things, just in case. I finally got the nerve to let it go on Saturday, and the tears started to flow.
And then add the fact that all three kids will be gone to school this year, I am really struggling. I am not ready to be an empty nester. I know, I know, that means they have all moved on and left the nest, but when you think about it, they (Cait and Daws this year) are gone more than they are home if you don't count sleep time. They leave by 8 and are home by 4 and are in bed by 8. That's only, max, five hours a day that I will see those two. And Cora will be gone 2 hours a day. So essentially I will be alone in my nest more then my babies are here with me. Yikes, where have my babies gone?
I cried when the school clothes came in the mail, I cried when I cleared out Cora's 3T clothes (I mean I sobbed for like 20 minutes over this one), I cried when I read their new teacher's names, I cry over everything related to school. I even cried while thinking about the back to school get together we are having with our cousin's tomorrow. I can't stop.
Why can't they stay little forever? It's just not fair.
7 comments:
I always wanted my kids to stay little forever too. From the first moment holding them in your arms who would have thought you would one day have to say goodbye. I bawled like a baby when we got rid of our crib--and lots of other times too. I'm sorry it hurts so much. You are an amazing mom.
I am sad too, change is hard! I am so not ready to transition, but that is where I am at! I hate school, isn't that terrible for a mom to say! I am trying so hard to soak in all the moments with my girls and my rapidly growing baby!
And then summer comes again? And then there is eternity
There are alternatives.
I agree with Kellie, No one ever said that they have to leave you home at this point. : ) Summer does come again but they will never be that age again. I could go on forever but I wont. : )
Sorry but homeschooling is not for me. I would rather send them to school and be sad about it then try to teach them at home. They will be fine and I have already recovered and am ready for school.
I wasn't talking about homeschool. It is great for us, but I know it is not for everyone. I am glad you are over it, they probably will be just fine.
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